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Camera Whore – A Prelude
November 29, 2010, 10:58 pm
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About a month back, my partner was away for the night with the lovely R and I was home alone. Though I’m relatively regular in my masturbatory habits, this was the first time in quite a while that I had the house to myself for the entire night and, uh, I wanked for about four hours straight. Towards the end of it, I was incredibly dizzy and my head was pounding. I was sure that if I came again, I might just pass out but I just had to have one… last… orgasm.

So it was 3AM, my room was a mess, my bed was covered in junk and… I squirted all over it. Though I’ve squirted many times before, this time I felt compelled to document the evidence so I grabbed my camera.

I then photographed myself in my dishevelled but still entirely dressed state (by myself, I often masturbate clothed but for my underwear). While doing this, I rediscovered an intimate feeling I’ve not had with the camera for a couple of years as my image making aesthetic has moved towards the more staged and dramatic.

For me, looking at a photo of myself is a world apart from looking at myself in the mirror. In the mirror, I am looking at me. In a photo, I am seeing me as somebody else. This can be confronting and distressing but sometimes it is refreshing, revealing and even erotic.

I wasn’t originally going to post the two photos in this blog entry because they felt a little too intimate, maybe even a bit “gross” for some of my friends to see my wet patch and bedroom hair! But for me there is a common thing which I enjoy in making my art, my porn in my blogging… that is pushing my own boundaries and challenging myself to be as honest as I possibly can. That can actually be really hard and it means putting a lot of stupid crap out there, but I try really hard not to censor myself because I really don’t believe in bottling shit up.

Anyway, all this rambling is actually just a prelude to a bigger blog entry I’m planning about my relationship to the camera and the gaze. That one’s been fermenting in my brain for a few years now, so here’s my official promise to attempt to get it into words as soon as I can.

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Holy shit, I’m really impressed. Also, that patch looks kinda like a flying rocket penis.

Comment by Eff Pan

Hahahaha! It totally does! Thanks, man!

Comment by Nio

I was thinking the same thing :P

Comment by Kitty

Haha! It’s like a rorschach test!

Comment by Nio

You go gril! I love this, especially in the light of *some* folks I have encountered thinking the women’s orgasms are somewhat irrelevant or at least have no visual appeal. this picture is rad!!!!!!! It is raw and real and I love it!

Comment by Katie

Irrelevant? No visual appeal? Have these people ever even WITNESSED a female orgasm? EVER?

Anyway, thanks for the comment, I really appreciate it!

Comment by Nio

Ha ha I love the flying rocket penis. You can’t help but do art can you :)

I have a 20 min mental arousal peak and 3 min physical journey to orgasm. Would be lovely to assist someone to achieve a 4 hour spontanious materbation orgy!! That’s amazing!

I really like the portrait. I’m gonna take a post orgasm pic agaimst a white wall for my next passport :) Thanks for being so open it’s lovely and very endearing, (as if everything else you do isn’t enough :)

Comment by Jake

“I’m gonna take a post orgasm pic agaimst a white wall for my next passport”

That seems like a great way to overcome the standard mug shot that one usually has for a passport photo.

Anyway, thanks! :)

Comment by Nio

You look gorgous and I like and admire the openness on your blog. So, so pretty.

Plus, it really is a penis rocket ship…and that is awesome.

Also – matching vibrators. :)

Comment by R

Thanks beautiful.

Oh and we totally do match! Vibrator twins! WEEEEEEEEE!!!!!

Comment by Nio

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I came here to talk about the flying rocket penis but alas I was late. You look well happy with yourself in the second one, as you should do, four hours is quite a party!

Comment by justaperfectday

I think mostly I was dizzy and high on exhaustion!

Comment by Nio

Okay, it’s obviously been some time since I saw those photos because that’s a bigger firing range than I remembered.

You’re beautiful and I don’t think I’ll ever be as brave as you are.

Comment by Wes

I love the fuck out of you.

Comment by Nio

Impressive! As wet patches go, that would rank up there with the best!

Comment by naturegirl1

wow so young ~ I didnt cum like that till i was fifty

Comment by d




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